went for the nus student union camp briefing just now..felt that the enthusiasm was overkill for me..one thing bad about me is that i hate changes! i despise anything that changes in my environment......
now that i'm going into uni..i start thinking about many things..having to start studying again..having to fit in..and i'm actually quite scared of hostel life..at the same time i'm kinda excited and looking forward to these stuff 'cept the studying part of course..
but what i will hate about living in the hostel is the fact that there is no air-con and that i won't have my own bathroom..i need the air-con to sleep. It's partly due to the fact that there is cool air blowing at you while you nap..but mostly i need the air-con for its soft, soothing sound..i can only sleep with that..changes changes..sigh...
and i really hate the fact that i have to walk so far away to bathe or pee or shit..i especially hate shitting away from home!
i'll be going to the union camp with andrea's friends..met up with one of her friends today..seemed okay..but it's scary going to camp not knowing most of the people..makes me feel very itsy bitsy..and i totally hate that feeling! wish some my other friends are going but they are not!
well..just airing my insecurities out here..bleah..better than having it all inside.....
when i was walking home just now..suddenly felt this air of depression settling in on me..it's shitty lar..wish i wouldn't feel like this..but what i'm feeling at that time is something that i can't share with anyone at all..i don't want to feel that way..i don't even want to think about it..but i can't help it..this THING keeps seeping back into my head when i'm not occupied with anything..
i'm not going to think of it!
on a happier note..i bought a tee from espirit when i was shopping with andrea after dinner just now..nice gd tee....now negative thoughts..out you go!
