The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

so the habit isn't kicked yet. it's such a waste of time, money and worse of all a bane to health. and most of all, it's affected family, friends and work relations. a habit's called one for a reason. i'm way stronger than this. so plans: first up - no half-measures. so that means it's cold turkey for the win. second - note progress. gonna jot down the anguish the temptation every single day. fifteen days is the first mark to hit. let's go.

i hate it when ppl don't just address the problem themselves. instead going through everyone else to solve something? so all the middlemen get hurt? Where's the sense in all this. ugh.

day one of a fresh start went down the drain.

someone's just giving the plain black face. damm zzz...

and i kinda screwed up at work. as if the day couldn't get worser, just received news that sunk my day proper. hook, line and sinker.

well thank god for good friends and sensible siblings. you know who you all are.

so far i've been living this year in a cloud. i rem saying to a friend at the start that 2010 wld be the best year yet. turns out to be otherwise so far. and it's only up to me to turn that around. so far, everything detrimental should have ended in the last weekend. so 19july fresh start, fingers crossed. tightly.

what a world of difference sg is to its neighbours. sometimes you need a jolt like this to realise how fortunate you are to be born just mere centimetres down the world map away from a third-world country.

home doesn't seem so homey tho, momo's furious with me for going to cambodia still. )): and like loads of rough patches ahead...sighs!

thank god for carmey today. went with her to collect our shape run pack, was prepared to take the train and all to town, but she came after she knocked off to pick me up (((: and what made it better? shopping and chatting!! took my mind off stuff...


alright, the kickoff for the world cup finals just happened. and guess what i'm heading to bed. gonna have serious monday blues tmr at work otherwise. night!
Waiting for the flight back to singers at the Cambodian airport right now. The last almost-fortnight have been fun! Almost dream-like actually..an escape from all the troubles in sg, but the last couple of days, nah-ah~ not tt fun..I pretty much can stand things or ppl that irritates me quite a lot I shld say, but once it hits the threshold, that's when it all explodes..I'm pretty guilty of spoiling stuff )): but gosh...ugh!

Choose your travel mates properly they said..owells! But to be fair, it was a good trip, pictures later..

I don't want to head back to singers coz of all the impending problems to work on, but to get away from the bug in my pants, bring on the troubles! Couple more hours!

I know I'm gonna regret all the bitching but I have to somehow get it out of my system roarssssss!

the past couple of weeks have been mad crazy. just non-stop crazy busy. can i just emphasize the crazy bit. i haven't experienced lack of time so bad.

so tomorrow or shall i say later in the night i'll be throwing down all this madness and leaving on jetplane.

have been ignoring all well-intentioned advice )): sorry guys!

p.s. sher i would have loved to attend your commencement, take more photos, enjoy the balloons and catch you when i get back. it's funny how little we meet even tho we work in the same building!