hmm..i was going home after meeting my section peeps last night (we went to celebrate huiping's bdae in advance - photos with elaboration soon!)..was walking home alone..duh..unless someone lives near me or with me, i'll be walking home alone (just feel as if i went one round and insulted myself)..when i suddenly had this paranoid thought..
it must be all the shows that i'm watching. do you remember there was this sniper show on channel u quite long ago, where this sniper guy (played by a guo something something) who went around killing innocent citizens by shooting them dead from the top of hdb flats just to strike terror into singaporeans? (woah..long sentence) and then i watched divergence where daniel wu was the sniper (woot woot woot!!!)..so many sniper shows...
okay..back to the point. i was walking home when suddenly i thought, 'what if someone shoots me from the too of the roof?' 'should i alternate my walking speed-like suddenly fast suddenly slow that kinda thing so it's difficult to aim?'..yar lar..don't know why i get so paranoid sometimes. haa..quite hilarious when i think of it..
and i started thinking agnes thoughts..lotsa people(but i don't know who) say that before you die..in that last second when you're still alive, ur brain does this super duper thingy and your life flashes before you. it may be in that case when you get a heart attack or when you fall off the building and your life flashes before you as you are descending to be flattened at the bottom.
but if a sniper shoots you in the head..it would not even take a second for you to die. in this case, would you be losing out on this amazing experience of having your entire life flash before you?
did i mention that although i've not seen anyone that has jumped off a building..but i've seen the blood of someone who had..it was freaky enough thank you! i was going to puaysian's house when i saw this whole pool of dried very very dark red thingy and there were crows pecking at the blood..euyuech!!!!
wonder where the blood flows out from when you hit the ground..
wonder whether it hurts just before you leave this world...
wonder whether you get the heart in your mouth feeling as you are free-falling in the air..
it's damn freaky..whoever jumps down to commit suicide must be feeling at the end of their wits..
wonder whether people who are afraid of heights would choose to way to commit suicide..whaha..
wah..damn sadist thoughts lar...
well..going to tj prelude concert tonight! spent quite an amount of time last night planning what to wear..but think i'm going to back out in the end because i'm scared i'll be too scantilly-clad..whaha! we'll see..i shall take the rest of the day to gather my courage..
finally receive my pay yesterday but i still can't withdraw it..bleah! it's nonsense lar..the money is already in my account but they still have to hold it for one day...
