days seem to be blurring into weeks. hmmm..not sure what i've accomplished this holiday.
3 months is a long long time. haven't been working much. haven't been exercising much. haven't been doing anything much. maybe save for daydreaming.
band competition is this sunday. gosh. didn't i just started turning up for practise awhile ago. that was when school hadn't even ended yet. sigh! time really is flying.
somehow i still don't have the motivation to go early to practise. i know there's something wrong with my playing. i just don't feel the urge to improve. i'm freaked out though, by the knowledge that a certain conductor will be there watching our band.
have been waiting for puaysian to call since wednesday. he's supposed to reach usa by then. i wonder how's he now. funny cause life carries on normally without him. just the occasional pangs of nostalgia. all the same though i wish he was back here. haven't been able to whine to anyone for a long long time. somehow i think i'm stronger as a person without him. with him, i know he's there watching my back so i can somehow be a softer person.
and i've been going mad and loose with all the money i've earned. bought so many things that i've been wanting to get since a long time ago but it turns out that they're still lying in their packaging unused.
oh it sounds like i'm lamenting about life. but really. i feel okay. just a tad bit sorry that time is passing freaking-ly fast.
