a few things happened recently that made me muse over stuff. stuff that were once dormant, but have now been stirred up.
since the big S back in 2007, i've been spending way much more time on friends than family. so today after leaving bitbit at the bunnysitter (another sobfest story all on its own), i spent the afternoon with my mum. just her and me. it's been a long time since we did stuff together. and strangely i kinda enjoyed it. reminded me of the times i used to go grocery shopping with her. or when we had lunch together at Amoy when we were both working at shenton way.
was supposed to bring bitbit to the bunnysitter's place then meet the 19 peeps for l4d. but ended up walking around with my mum getting last minute supplies for the trip. and it kinda took very long so i didn't meet them in the end. i hope they aren't mad!
travelled all the way across singapore to joy's place for hers and yxuan's birthday celebrations. reeling from the shock of the long train journey, i sat at the food table for awhile in silence, just feeding myself and wondering how nice and calming the easy banter at the food table was. uni life may well be over. but the friendships earned from the 4 years was worth every second of toil.
and now that a few friends have found themselves coupled up, there's this annoying, nagging tic at the back of my head. but no, the breath of fresh air..the freedom of not having to think how my actions will affect another is too much of a fixation to give it up.
and i wonder how fortunate i am to have found a confidant in an friend who was merely an acquaintance in the past. and in such a short period of time too. i guess you know who you are. i'm thankful that you're there to listen without judging. and i'm glad you've moved on to a better place and that you've earned your bliss. may it rub off on me hurhur!
well it feels good to heave these thoughts here. all said in goodwill so peace! i'm still awfully bothered that i haven't started packing though. ugh i'm such a last-minute queen!
