The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

will someone come rescue me now? i'm super bored..have gone through all the blogs and my mails..now i've exhausted everything i can do online...

and i don't dare to ove or touch anything 'cause it's not my freaking room and some ppl don't like other peeps touching their stuff..so now i'm literally 'superglued' to the chair in front of the comp....

ZzzZ......
it's weird here! her blogspot page and everything in it since i logged in is in chinese! bleah..oops! i forgot..it's ntu! haa..

her room is so much bigger than mine..on the other hand! it's a double room but damn..it's hot here!
hey big guy...this is for you.....

zoe jane by staind.....
oh no...just as i was duper proud of myself for staying awake for lessons the whole day ydae..i totally slpt the day away today..

BUT IT"S NOT MY FAULT WAT..i slpt late to finish revising my lecture! opened my eyes as big as i could for anatomy lect but ended up slping anyway..

and i expected myself to stay awake at least for lab today..but was swaying as i stood there listening to the lecturer..tired!!

this is why i'm skipping handball match today..gg to study!! nerdy agnes! with the big glasses! haa..think i'll still look cute! haa...
very proud of myself today 'cause i stayed awake for all my lectures! yeah..i dozed off now and then..but i made sure my lids did not shut for more than 5 secs..

and i understood my drug action lecture..i just revised through the notes just now..and i felt so enlightened..instead of the usual 'dunno-anything' stupor i'm in when i read through my lecture notes..

i'm gg to try to stay awake for all my lectures! which means i've got to go slp now..sorry guy..i really wanted to finish my lecture before slping..but i tried to go as fast as i could to go slp..

had a good chat with a few of my blk ppl in the blk lounge just now..haven't had this kind of just sit there and talk cork feeling for quite long le..so hostel life is actually mighty fine..save for the millions of activities!

being away from home makes me miss lotsa people..four of them in particular..my sis, mum and dad..and most of all..my big guy....
just had macs in hostel lounge..yummy! but for some reason i'm still hungry!

mcdonalds has delivery now! so good..call 6777 3777! whee..food whenever you're hungry..planned to do alot of work today..but didn't!
yes yes! i'm happy!

anyway..i love black cats with white paws! they are so bloody cute! especially when they walk..i just feel like hugging them...so cute so cute! they totally look like they're wearing socks or something!

kitty kitty!
i've started reading horoscopes since something disastrous happened this year..the ones i read are weekly ones..i do read the daily ones too..but not all the times..some weeks they seem true..some weeks they don't really seem true..

this week's horoscope seemed especially true..from what i remembered..this is what my weekly horoscope says,


i just gorged myself..ate a packet of crackers..one small snickers bar and i'm still feeling hungry..planning to eat another snickers bar..

someone just taught me a lesson...a lesson on not to be indecisive..

yes yes..i know i am..i hate making decisions! over my years of trying to be nice to people, i've turned into an indecisive unopiniated pig..opens second snickers bar and takes a munch..

but now i've learnt..before this..everytime i made a decision..i didn't think of the conseqences or that there'd be consequences..so everytime my 'made up' decision meets with an unforeseen unpleasant consequence..i'd jump to change it without thinking about the consequences if i change it..

i learnt that with every decision..there might be uncomfortable situations that arised because of my decision..but i must stick to my decision since i already made it...

but at least i'm not stubborn anymore....
just realised something...i might be turning into a boring old freak.....sigh...just don't feel like entertaining people anymore...

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME???
going to sleep now.....time 4.06am.....ZzzZZ.........
white it is!

anyway..bizad bash was a flop man! damn super boring..i came late so i couldn't even check out the pageant contestants..felt quite guilty for bringing puaysian and his friends there..don't know whether they had fun not..but at least they could check gals out!

archery was a blast though..it started out horribly for me..my arrows went everywhere but the damned board! but then it got better..my arrows were hitting around the same spot..so that was good! ah..you see..in archery the aim is consistancy..because the peephole through which you aim is adjustable! haa..so kewl right? but the bow was very heavy! and the 'string' or whatever it's called was so tight..needed alot of strength! i just realised how weak i am..

but i paid the fees and now I AM OFFICIALLY IN ARCHERY! yay!! now when people ask bout my cca..i can proudly say archery!! haa....

guess what?! another piece of good news..i finished my tutorial up 'til to the second last questi0n!! what a gd gal i am! whaha...

you know how they say bad stuff come in a group? i had the worsest luck ever today..first of all after struggling in my heels to the bus stop at the back of KR, i realised that 'oh shit! i forgot to bring my ticket!' then i had to trugged all the way back and to the bus stop again..when i reached harbourfront..i missed the bloody train and had to wait 8 mins..after changing train at dhoby ghaut..i missed the train again! and had to wait for 6 mins..in the end..i was an hour late..had people waiting for me for an hour! so guilty!!

bizad bash was the highlight of my week..so disappointed now......back to boring sch life.......bleah.........ZzzZ........
went for archery today!!! it was SUPER FUN!

gg to bizad jam n hop now!

black or white black or white? i just can't decide!
going zouky zouk tmrw night! oh no..i mean tonight....so it's time to mug...

i'm going to see whether i can accomplish anything tonigh..

12.04am
going to start soon but chatting to carmen and puaysian on msn..
i think my wisdom tooth is coming out..damn irritating..not painful YET!

12.22am
andrea coming over to pass me my tix for tmrw! so decided to pack my room....
no progress yet..on the other hand..i've taken out foolscap and my tutorial..a start!

1.12am
andrea came over and left! the gum over my wisdom tooth is swelling!! very uncomfortable....
serena added me on msn and now we are telling each other stories...but i left her 'cause was talking to andrea and now she disappeared.....
so far..did part 1 of question 1...bleah!

1.27am
finished question 1!! four parts lae!!!

1.43am
haven't start on second question yet..just spoke to puaysian on the phone..he's slping le..lucky guy...slp tight!
carmen added me to a conversation with her friend..cause her friend wanna drop out of sch to study pharmacy when she heard that we can see dead bodies! whaha.....

2.21am
carmen went off to slp..i should too or else i'd never recover from my flu....i only managed up 'til question 2..was stumped at question 3..amazingly i'm still very awake!

2.44am
just realised that answers are given for the questions i did..freak!!! going to slp now..i don't care!
know i hear everyone saying i told you so..haiz..i strived to complete to complete my hw on time and everything..the heart is strong but the soul is weak.....

so now..i'm stuck with two weeks of lectures to go through..guess it's a wake up call for me..two weeks is better than two months..

been wanting to start mugging since like eons ago..but never gotten down to it..damn damn stressed!

damn lucky i've my anchor.........
the feeling is DAMN good man!! i can just bring it everywhere..i'm now alone in andrea's room!!! it's so tempting! she has this big box of cookies beside me on the bed! and this whole ton of food in front of me! andrea!!!

and i'm watching america's nxt top model on her tv! yes..she has a tv in her room!!

tried to stay in my room with the door closed to prevent anyone from asking me out for more activities..but ended up going to my friend's room to watch tv and then to andrea's room to watch tv!

i haven't touch my hw!! i'm so going to mug tonight! going to start at midnight....and stay at it for at least an hour! shit shit shit! i can't believe how much shit i'm in...i have so much work to do...

anw..i'm going with andrea to bizad jam n hop this wed! asking puaysian and friends along too..think they will like it since there's gonna be bands! looking forward to wed...
realise that i have been procrastinating in doing stuff..just bathed finish..while waiting for my hair to dry..my big guy suggest that i blog....

so there..i'm doing it..

anyway...if anyone needs a face to match with a name..here goes!

















what a cutie!! haa.....

anyway..we think that we saw a shooting star that day..it was super nice..first time i saw such cool shit..

it was just a flash of streaking light..couldn't be anything else right? i made a wish but i'm not telling! haa....

wanted to type some long entry bout this shooting star thing..but think i'll keep it short and simple to mesmirise (shit! i forgot how to spell this word...tried a few times le..) you guys!

blog more tmrw..on the verge of puking now..think my body's telling me to take a rest...nitey!
yeah..i'm back from vball..damn tired..but i'm coming back to a room that's in a mess..that's 'cause i haven't packed my stuff! my clothes for the whole week is on my bed!

and i still have to bathe! normally..i won't care but i just changed my bedsheets so HAVE TO BATHE! bleah...

will blog later after my bathe..toodaloos!

p.s. for some reasons, i've been procrastinating about blogging..you can ask puaysian..i've started sevaral entries just to cancel it and log off..no idea why!!
and i brought my laptop!! yay! haa..will write more tonight..right now..i've to go down for vball training..know i promised my mother and myself not to go for any training('cause i'm sick!)..but think i'll go down anyway!

later!
yes yes...super stressed today when i saw all my fellow pharmacist-to-be (i prefer calling them farmers!) going up to the lecturer asking them questions they have on the second lecture when i've not even touched the first lecture! help!! super stressed..adding on to that..there is the ibg at my hall!

i seem to be taking my name down for each sport as the day passes..bleah! terrible i noe..but i just have too many commitments..althought i've no idea what they are..have been neglecting my family too so i'm feeling super bad about that..especially when i'm missing them alot but they think i just heck-care 'bout them since i don't go back often(even if i do go back, i'd be out with my friends)..

and there's my amore! i have five more lessons to go for..and there's no more time! my dateline is this friday..after trying 3 lessons in two consecutive days..i'm mwaving the white flag..my body ached so much! anyway wanna make a trip down to amore to try out their classes or just use their steam bath or gym, just tell me kay? i'd pass you the card! but ladies only!

but there're no lessons on tues afternoon and the whole of wed!! whee!! so i'm spending more time with puaysian!! haa..that's why i'm so happy! and we'll be going shopping! haa..but i also wanna watch charlie and the chocolate factory! reading the book to him now..but think it'll take ages!

anyway! i went for two concerts ydae..erm..okay..i meant to go for two concerts ydae but i only went for one because i was late for the first one..so i actually didn't see shijia playing at all! so sorry gal but i know you'd be great on stage!

the second one was st pats concert..saw a few of the old st pats peeps like ben, cow, greg and meroy..makes me feel damn old..it seemed like so long ago that we were going out for chalets and bbqs..puaysian was playing for the concert (that's why i went!) and he looked damn good on stage! haa..made me damn proud of him!

andrea accompanied me to his concert..we were walking to have dinner when her slippers strap kinda broke! so we went to charles and keith to get this shoe that andrea wanted to buy anyway! and i got tempted into buying this pair of super high heels! bleah..oh well..puaysian won't be complaning that i'm short anymore!

we had dinner at thai express..the food was kinda nice..i swore off thai food since the last time i went to thailand because everything i smelt their food i kinda wanna retch! smelly! no offense though..the first time i went thailand..i practically gulped food down at every meal! 'cause it was nice! secnd time was really bad...but the stuff there is really cheap..their alcoholic drinks are like 5 times cheaper..it's scary!

having bball and netball training at 9pm later! i skipped handball..already planned to take my name off the list! really wanna go for touch this morning..i swore i remembered setting my alarm clock at 5.58am to go for training at 6am but when i woke up, it was freaking 7.15am! and it was time to go for school!

anyway..today's sch was really tiring..we had three lectures! but my day started at 8am and ended at 6pm! what's really keeping me going is that i'm going to spend two days with puaysian! haa..can't wait to pack my bag in anticipation of the nxt two days! shopping!! whee!

shall blog more after i come back on thurs..hopefully i'd be going to bring my laptop to hostel..but it's so heavy!! and i'm so lazy to lug it all around!

in a really jovial mood now! shall save the studying for the weekends but maybe i shall mug abit tonight! seeya guys!
my sis is singing solo at the festival park today!!

i just reached home lugging stuff from hostel and nobody is at home! i wanna go down and watch her sing..on the other hand..there's no one accompanying me and i'm abit lazy to make my way down since i'm super exhausted! so should i or shouldn't i..that is the question!! whaha! i sound damn irritating man....

oh well..i've decided not to go..i'll be standing there alone squinting my eyes at whoever is singing chan mali chan! makes no sense to me..i'll just bombard my sis with questions when she gets home!

anyway..i'm feeling damn damn damn (yeah..it deserves this many damns) at hostel! there's a thousand and one stuff to do! i can't cope! help! have too many commitments..and i for one have no sense of time management! yeah..i constantly turn up late for meetings..that is why i lurve going with pals who are late too! wth right? it's not as if i want to be late but i feel uncomfortable when i'm early..feel as if i'm wasting my time...bleah..excuses...

anyway..we were on the subjects on scary hall life! ibg(inter-block games) are coming so training has just started! we have to join a minimum of 5 sports..i joined 6 but cancelled one today because there's so many trainings..i can have like three trainings on one day!! and the first one can start at 6am and the last one can end at 11pm..this is practically impossible man!

sigh..i'm thinking of whether i should risk my studies and just go all out for hall activities..or maybe i should just shun the activities and become a hall hermit or some outcast..because there is no in-between...

whatever i decide to do..i've come to a conclusion..after this sem..i'm moving back home! i've experienced hall life in a terrific hall and that's it!

i'm sorry to some people to whom i've been neglecting..this period of time is hectic man! pls bear with it..

adding on to all the trainings..my amore membership is expiring soon and i've a total of 8 lessons to complete in seven days! went for one on friday night at the woodlands branch..

it was yoga! i swear that i'd never ever go for yoga lessons again! it's damn humiliating man..you see old housewives and aunties at the start of the lesson and you snigger at them..but the positions they can do with their bodies blows your mind off man! i'm so shocked i just sat there and stared like some stupid idiot...

i also had some souveniors from that yoga class..terrible aches and pains! sigh..but i managed to meet puaysian after the class and we spent like so much time together! it's been a long time man...but i'm happy....

i managed to complete two classes at amore today..hi/lo and kickboxing..i was super shagged lar..i couldn't concentrate at all during kickboxing! i couldn't get the moves right at all..sigh sigh sigh...five more lessons to go!

sigh..i'm so tired to write now..okay..i'm lazy alright! shall end here...hope my week will be okay..it's going to be a busy one!
bleah...yeah..met my sis to shop today..i was actually planning to WINDOW shop..but argh! temptations temptations!

topshop has tons of great stuff man!!!! i just want everything..but no moolahs......sigh.......

anyway..before i start on what i bought today...i shall tell you guys what i'm wearing now..why don't you guess?

hmmm...nah..not something super nice..i'm actually wearing.........tee and shorts!!!!

bleah..my father's coming to pick me up to go to the hostel at 0440 military timing! whaha! that's cuz i have bball and netball ibg training that starts at 0530 officially! bleah..zzzzz...and if that's not tough enough..i have a full day of lessons tmrw followed by formal dinner back at kr followed by the star to burst concert! dark heavy eyebags here i come!!

okay...back to what i bought! my biggest wish now is to win some shopping spree at topshop!! haa..wth? yeah...anyway i bought this purple razor from mango! yayey yay! saw the off shoulder top that sher and irene were talking bout..it's the 'mango adores you' thingy right? tried it but i looked shitified in it! haa...

then i went kino to get stationary 'cause there was 20% discount for all stationaries! bought this puma notebook 'cause it was black with the puma words in silver and the lines inside were pink! that's hot! haa....and i bought this file that i don't really require...bleah....

accompanied my sis to heeren to get her black beads but ended up buying a cap and bag from addidas! both are in black and silver! haa...i must stop spending money le! but it's so difficult!

anyway..i met puaysian after that 'cause he wanted to pass me the lan cable! haa...it was fun being with him as always...we bought food and his stuff! but he said i was flabby! stupid guy! but he's still my fave guy...he just complained to me that his room has just been painted pink! haa...oh no...poor thing!! haa....can't stop laughing 'bout it too...

i shall be nice and not tell people bout ur nightmare! whee! haa....
yea yea..i freaking haven't blogged since grandma last knows when...whaha! anyway i've got my geisha module! but i kinda regretted not bidding in earlier rounds..my friend huilin got her module at a cool low 11 points..while i got mine at a freaking 320 points!! u say crazy not? i hate this stupid bidding system!

ydae was the first day of school..and boy was it terribly eventful..

after 40 mins out of the 2 hours of our 8am lecture, the lecturer ended his lecture and just walked out of the lecture theatre..so naturally we all gasped and gushed 'bout how early the lecture ended and packed our stuff and left!

i brought my laptop with me to configure it at school so that i can finally use the internet on it..so huilin proposed that since her nxt lecture was 12pm and my next lecture was 2pm..we should go the multi-purpose sports hall to configure my laptop..

when we climbed all the way up to the third storey, the man told me i couldn't configure my laptop there as it wasn't bought in school..tootpid man! and that i had to bring it to the forum instead to configure it.......

at the same time..huilin got a call that told her that lecture is still on now! bleah..then we had to rush all the way back with me lugging my 2.4kg laptop..sounds light but you try it man!

actually..i'm kinda tired of narrating the whole story..okay..here comes the gist..yea..know i'm lazy..but it's my blog! the gist of my unfortunate first day at school was dragging my laptop from the mpsh to the forum to the law comp lab to the comp centre to be told that they do not offer the configuration service there but the gal there stuck this cd under my nose and galiantly told me that i could freaking d-i-y myself!

and after the end of the day..my nose bled again..after remaining dormant for many many months..it happens when i don't drink water..so you see serene! i'm not a shui tong..i drink water to prevent my nose from bleeding noe..

but it was still a happy ending 'cause i met puaysian at orchard in the evening! he helped my carry my laptop the whole night! sho nice!

we ate at the coffee club at wisma..and their food quality has gone down like a mile man! the first time i tried their lasagna, it was so heavenly, it inspired me to try making it at home! but know..it tasted like bleah.....but their drinks are still way good man!

and then we skipped over to topshop where they had 40% discounts on certain items because of national day..there, i let puaysian choose clothes for me to try..and i have to admit, he has quite a good taste! he picked out clothes i'd never had tried on but they looked great when i tried them on!

if only i was working now! i'd have bought a ton of stuff!!

when he was walking me home..he asked me whether i wanted to see something and he flunk his bracelets (those wooden beaded kind) over the road into the field! haa..it was so damn hilarious..

had so much fun with him 'cause he always makes me laugh so hard! tralala!!
chants let me get my module..let me get my module..let me get my module..let me get my module..let me get my module..let me get my module..let me get my module..let me get my module..

haa..yeah..that shows how much i want it! bit lame though..thank the heavens! i finally found something that i'm interested in and i have someone to accompany me for lessons! sab is accompanying me! i could do with her company!! yeah! haa..bit exhilirated ah..cuz i finally settled this crappy bidding stuff!

the course that i'm bidding for IS......drumroll.......geisha, samurai, yakuza as self/other!! yeah..can just see some of you with puzzled faces going 'wtf?!' haa..but i like it and that's that! anyway..learning bout jap culture seems quite interesting..i've always wanted to learn more bout geishas..and after watching Tom Cruise and Ken something (think is Watanabe) in The Samurai..i'm also interested in learning more bout samurais! have no idea what a yakuza is, but guess i'll know after this module!

well..i'm going back to the hostel after this..after knowing that i'm not going to stay in hostel for more than one sem..i've lost my enthusiasm to take part in stuff there..moreover i miss home! yeah..i've also fallen sick with a fever on wed so i've decided to take two days off hostel to rest..the people there are like super hyper! they don't have to rest much for some reason or other! i can't do that..i'm a human being...

but i'm still going for auditions for sports in hostel..know i've been in band for almost my whole life but i really like sports..i love pe when there was no running in the past..well..we'll see what the nxt 6 months hold for me..

yeah..and i was feeling kind of depressed over bidding stuff last night because i thought i'd have to go to lectures alone and stuff 'cause i've been left with modules that people don't want..then puaysian said i could call him and he'd tell me jokes! his jokes are super lame actually..but it made me laugh because he tried even though he was exhausted! thank you!!! muackz! so love talking to you!

also, i've changed lab groups with this guy in my pharmacy course so now i get to be with huilin for the next 4 years in pharmacy..so glad that there's someone i know and can hang out with during class!

yeah..this entry is all 'bout how i should appreciate my life now..well..'cause everything is working out for me! anyone depressed should do this as well..the little stuff in life suddenly makes you feel that everything is alright again! starting to sound abit namby pamby..but that's how you'll be after a bout of depression right?

and yeah..kent ridge (KR) is really a family man! i just messaged two gals in my block bout my falling ill and not being back 'til today and suddenly i've a flood of messages asking how i am..and telling me to take care! i'm so super touched! thanks to junmin, teetong, dann, kaiwen, sunny and andrea! you guys are the greatest! haa....

which reminds me..i've to learn the kr anthem for tmrw's rag day! it's rag day tmrw!! guess i'll be staying home until open bidding has ended then i'll go join the guys for rag rush!
i am infuriated at the bidding system!!!!!!!!!! i hate bidding!!!!!! just let me get my course can? sigh sigh...so bloody irritated..

on the other hand, i spent a perfectly nice afternoon with puaysian and two of his friends, sanjiv and aaron..

we watched wedding crashers. it was a really funny movie in a kind of dirty way..guys should love it....heard them laughing really loudly at some of the parts..

really glad to have puaysian there as my anchor now..really feeling a little unsettled with all the new stuff..hope you won't fall sick!
yes..that's what i am now! bloody tired! i woke up at 5am this morning for flag day know..wth?! i'm like considering whether i should continue staying at hostel after one semester..i just miss home so so much these few days..but i'm so going to hate the travelling time if i stay at home! at hostel, i have so little time to do anything else..furthermore if i have to earn enough points to stay in KR, i'd have to join at least 5 activities! freak!

let me think whether there's 5 activities for me to take up..

firstly, i wanna learn the bass guitar so that i can join KR Rockers and be a female bass guitarist! how cool can that be man?! someone teach me please?? i learn fast....

secondly, i wanna join netball! it's been my all time fave sport ever since pri 6..the thrill you get when you play in a team is nothing words can describe..and when you win....yeah..you get it...

thirdly, i'm going to play touch rugby for my block..something i think is so damn cool but i just can't get the hang of passing backwards..i'm so so used to passing forward!

fourthly, softball!!! it's a really fun fun game..have no idea whether it'll be just as fun when the game is competitive..

fifth on the list..have no idea actually! maybe i'll join netball recre or air rifle or something with sab and huilin..we shall see..

anyway..can someone please slow down time for me..it's too freaking fast! i'm like close to 19 years old already..soon i'll be 40 man!

anyway..i wanna shout it out loud! i love my home!! it's so comfy at home..nitey! wanna slp already..so tired..but i at least i won't snore loudly like some anonymous person! muahahaha!
i went home and freaking left my comp password at hostel!! now i have to go back tomorrow to get it lar..i had this naggy feeling that i should have saved my password in my handphone on sunday..but i did not follow my gut feeling and now i have to waste extra time tmrw lar! oh man..someone is going to scold me for saying lar again!

anyway..i wanna go out with you! think it's going to be a long time 'til the next time we meet man! that's 'cause i have rag on saturday..so won't be able to meet then you have band pract!

i had flag day today! hilarious man! the things ppl do to escape donating money!

shan't elaborate now..but i had great fun with the people in my group! well..going to settle my only module now...sianz!