The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

yesterday must have been the hotest day of the year. i didn't really notice it because i was in the freezing cold library like thirty minutes after i woke up, but i came home with frozed purple toenails to a grumpy, heat-stroked bernice. and to the story of the hotest day she ever ran her napfa 2.4 to.

and i didn't notice the swealtering heat until i came out of the air-conned bedroom. i swear i could feel the heat seep into my pores. so i brought my rabbit into my bedroom for some shelter from the heat. we only went out at 3am after the earth had cooled down....

and didn't manage to wake up at 9.45am...grrr woke up at a horrible 3pm..today was much better...1.10pm...

my mum's on leave tmr! maybe with the help of McGriddles or so my mum's offering..i'll be able to wake up before noon...hee!

okay trying my best to return to a normal body clock. sleeping just before the sun rises and waking up to a blasting afternoon sun is doing no good to me.

this past saturday, slpt at 6am as usual, my family were all up by 8+am and they were making such a din that i couldn't slp! esp once i saw the sun, so i headed out with my mum for some McGriddles!!! woopppeee quite yummy...

and today i tried to slp early..like at 1am but laid in bed til past 3am..when i woke up my body felt sluggish and i cldn't concentrate at all..ended up in bed after breakfast and the paper...

so it's time for readjustment tmr! anyways most of my paper are at 9am..i wldn't want to be a zombie while taking them....

gonna wake up by 9.45am tmr!

anyways it was a nice weekend! sat out with my sis & mum, and today at gramps...my uncle decided to buy this 1.5 by 1m jigsaw for my grandma with mother's day coming and all..IT'S CRAZY!! don't think he'd be able to finish..my sis was saying he'd need to take leave for the whole week to maybe be able to complete it...

you know you're in the middle of studying week when everything on your mind is everything you wanna do after exams!

i just can't seem to focus on studying alone! ugh!

have been studying til 6am and waking up at 2pm every single day. my slp cycle is like totally wrecked )):

can't wait can't wait.

gonna watch all episodes of cashmere mafia, The OC, Lost, Prison Break, ANTM and the list goes on...

gonna sew like a pile of bags and clothes..

gonna read the stack of books that have been piling up in my table...

and MJ!!!

and of course trips to sentosa, malacca and ecp...

okay now back to studying!

it's the two weeks to the finals. and i think it's gonna be the most difficult two weeks of the sem. you know you have not much time to study yet the papers are still two weeks away that you don't the adrenaline and motivation to study.

and i'm waaayyy behind my study timetable but yet the bed calls out to me at all times of the day and i willingly give in. ):

it's weird how one's past life suddenly catches up with you out of the blue.

for me, it was a friend i got to know in sec 3. have been talking to him hours on msn recently. about the past...stupid things he did for a friend, how blur and naive i was.

well we were all young and stupid once. don't think i regretted the friendship though.

i've this sickening habit of being nostalgic about gd things ending..today was the last day of french lessons.

after both tests, instead of feeling happy, i felt super sad....i rem a few times where i felt that same dull sadness...the last day of my holiday in Tasmania - i rem bawling on the toilet bowl before leaving for the airport i was like only p6 for ** sake and when i ended long-running jobs during the time a levels. thought i wld miss my colleagues and die of a heartache....

so after i said bye to my teacher and walked out of class, a bunch of us classmates stood ard and started talking bout how we should start a facebook grp and such so that we'd be able to take french 2 tgt. we sorta exchanged numbers and had a sorta last lunch kinda thing..but i doubt we'll be calling each other much also......

owells..all gd things must come to an end i guess so i'm just verging on being emo again!

i love The OC..one of the best shows ever. i guess it's all the emotions the show managed to build up over the past 4 seasons. pity its run is over..for good. )):

THE SCHOOL TERM IS COMING TO AN END. i say this not with great happiness but with a twinge of sadness. this sem has been one of the greatest for me.

maybe it's coz of the helllish sem last year, that makes whatever comes after it a bed of roses. but i've got to say that it's definitely because of the people around me.

tuesday lunch have been one of the high points of the week for me. trying to squeeze all of us into a 6-sitter and heading to the milo van after have been real nice to look back on.

also, i used to dislike going back with anyone on the train home. going back alone gives me time for some shut eye or a little time with myself. but this sem, going back with weiqi and sometimes some of the others, filling the ride home with chatter has been a real nice alternative.

french classes with niron have been going great too. we've got to know a bunch of people from classes. and hanging out between tutorial and lecture in the arts canteen with them have made 8am tuts a little more bearable.

and of course there's joy. a real swell friend to be with....i think getting to know her better was the turning point in my uni ed. the things i love most doing with her has no doubt got to be laughing over trivial matters. a particularly hilarious incident was when a not to be named friend who sat in between us during lecture, fell aslp and scratched a certain part of his/her anatomy without realising....MAJOR LAUGHING FIT!

of course not all the fun evolved around the pharmacy ppl. this sem has got to be the most time i've spent with my jc mates in a long time. supper at prata places and mj sesh at greg's and the cookout at sab's place...can't wait til the exams are over and these can resume.

two more weeks til the end of sch term. i guess it'll pass pretty quickly..sigh!

i'm feeling awfully depressed. after drifting in and out of slp while supposedly studying for french, and not doing too well on the test in the end.

i was stumbling home when a lady looked me right in the eye and said hey zip it up. for a split moment i thought she was a loco woman asking me to shut up, then i realised i'd forgotten to zip the fly on my black skinnies. oh mon dieu....i blame it on wearing too much of shorts and skirts, don't have a habit of unzipping my shorts...or maybe i was too tired..or maybe..ugh....fortunately i met mel on the way home.

owells thank god for that kind soul.......and black undies....