The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

ugh just had bout the most head-splitting monday ever. had like a ton to blog about but just about now i lost the urge to.

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i finally finished my drug monograph. that took pretty long. and this is totally random but i've been eating durian daily for the past 5 days! yummers! esp the day my mum bought 12 fruits. haha..the durian seller must have had a field day! but i'm feeling super heaty and spots are appearing all over my face. NOT GOOD. gonna keep away from durian for the next couple of days.

had to start answering calls today at DI. and niron wasn't around. ): still it went alright i guess. the hours at work are starting to pass pretty quickly. it's already week 3. what i don't like is that i'm bringing work home. what keeps me going is meeting with friends at the end of the week. finding refuge and a very lovely dinner at home keeps me sane too.

okay i think i've forgotten how to blog. internet connection is VERY cranky these days. hence the lack of posts. whenever i have tons to pour out, the modem just won't work. and yes almost everyone has asked. we have a new modem but everyone's too lazy to install it. it's been sitting there for over a year already though.

today was one of those days that you put on your ugly clothes that makes you look frumpy because there wasn't time over the weekend to iron clothes. so it matters. the next time you wake up grumpy, wear something nice. will totally change your mood.

and i've been a cow at answering smses and msn messages these past couple of weeks. just can't seem to find a proper schedule between work, rest and play.

its funny how fast the week passes when there's no work on saturday! the days have been flying by and now it's the end of week 2! loads of work to be done still! updates tonight..got to rush for a meeting in the morning..can''t be late!

it's officially mid-week. whoopee coz i'm soo tired. and this week is gonna be a five-day work week!

yesterday was the most fun i had since we started work. went through antimicrobials at work with the DI in-charge and it was so relaxed and fun. niron and i kept laughing coz we were crap at antimicrobials and were struggling to use stanford. but still we learnt a great deal! totally my preferred style of learning.

met mel at her working place at tamp1. the place there looks pretty good! swanky and shiny!

was there coz i met the jc ppl for dinner. we went to dhan's place after to watch alex get his hair cut. after that we had a drink at the bark cafe at changi. then before we headed home to crash, we satisfied our fries craving at macs. reached home at 1am..this morning we're having a meeting with our manager. i'm crossing my fingers and anything that can be crossed that i stay wide awake!

start of a new working week yet again. the weekend is never enough. spent the entire sunday morning sleeping in to gather enough rest for the next week ahead. but because i reached home around 1am after supper on sunday, i'm zombie-fied at work today again. poor niron..i only actually wake up during lunch and after 4pm, but that's when niron becomes sleepy. haha..we work as one entity. waste of manpower really.

i came home and was determined to not fall asleep. but after dinner, while waiting for my mum to cut fruits. i decided to take a nap and woke up only at 11pm. totally missed brain's attempts to show me his girlfriend on webcam! haha..sorry khor khro dile!



spied this butterfly in the balcony while bringing my rabbit's cage out to dry in the sun on sunday! so pretty! i used to be afraid of butterflies loads..refused to step into the butterfly park thing in sentosa as a kid and sulked until my mum brought me up on the cable car ride. but the thing i was most terrified of was clowns. used to duck into shops and hide among clothes whenever i see one approaching in a shopping mall.

anyhows i'm supposed to read a ton of journals and type some antibiotic spectrum thingy into excel but i think i'll leave that til 6am tomorrow morning. think i'll head to bed and wake up early!

met sher dhan greg for a run in the night earlier. we ran then we ate murtabak. yea i know.

koped pics from dhan again..he uploads them so quickly. okay this is post run so excuse the shiny foreheads.


haha love sitting in dhan's car when he drives! i laugh every single time!

okay just msned niron to tell him that i'm not doing any of the work we were assigned to. and he didn't as well! haha..we are both gonna be in trouble but i'm too tired to read up on antimicrobials.

yes i know i shld get used to it. since work has started. but i'm a little bummed about not having a two-day weekend! makes friday so much less fun. at work today, i was practically only physically present, mentally i was floating somewhere in rainbow land. and i think i have to have a word with niron bout it tmr. it's that time of the month. and i was soo tired, i practically ignored him the whole morning. giving him only blank stares as replies. but he was pretty good-natured bout it! i feel horrible now.

met the percussion gals after work for dinner at dhoby ghaut's astons! the fries over there are awesome!


and i really really love spending time with them. they are about the nicest group of people you could hang around with. everyone accepts each one for who they are. they are almost my therapy group when i start getting grouchy, malicious and spiteful. really miss chalet time with them. shijia passed me a cd with the chalet photos today..so sweet of her! so chalet post up soon!

and its dhan's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! he invited us over for cake. but i didn't head over coz it was rather late by the time i was back in the east. but when sher, sab and he came over to the tamp prata place for supper, they brought me a slice..superb!



and the pictures are from his cam. dhan uploads pictures super quickly..wonderful! supper was fun. laughed alot at alex's predicament!

and this picture of kate moss makes me want to go cut my hair a little shorter. but noo stop me! she's a supermodel afterall..everything looks good on her!


and just as bakerzin's cakes were brought up when i met both groups of friends, i came home to their cake of the month nestling in the fridge..cheesecake! their offer last month was even better..some choc cake that was out of the world! oh maan it's 3.30am now, i have to report for work at 8.30am later. gonna go zombie niron again.

whoopee! mel's KL photos are up! and i love this photo so much! makes me beam from ear to ear!

i'm on my 3rd day going on to 4th day of work and strangely i'm not excited much. wonder what it means. i was placed along with niron into DI for our first 5 weeks. so i guess it'll be a little slow..great time for me to stuff the things we learnt back into my head.

and niron has been telling me how none of his pants fit him now after all his stuffing in the europe. thought he was just being paranoid til i put on work pants for the first time today and it was soo tight! now we're consoling ourselves over lunch meals saying that 'holiday calories' don't count. yes i know..living in denial right...

and i'm always tired every evening when i reach home. time to adopt good slping habits. was so tempted to take a nap in the evening but i knew it was gonna screw up my slp cycle so headed out for a run to keep me awake and i think i found the perfect spot in tampines to run. it's this huge field that's just beside the expressway to pasir ris. the whole area is pretty huge so the wind there is pretty strong! perfect for running!

its before dawn. i'm tired but i'm awake. wow it's wonderful what starting work does to you.

met sher and dhan yesterday fo 18chefs! dhan is back! we then headed to starbucks to sit around and chat. he's back for 3 months, sher has 3 more weeks of hols but i've started work so i'm quite bummed out coz they're making plans to do something huge for the summer hols but i won't be able to join them in the day!

okay i'm about to be late for work coz fb is taking so long to upload the paintball pictures. but kl eating monsters! if you see this, pictures are up! i've no time to tag yet though!

i'm really tired so i'm not gonna wait til midnight to post this entry. it's 10.30..i'm gonna hit the bed at 11pm have been zombie-ing around the house the entire night coz i slpt at 4am last night..

went running without proper running socks earlier on, wore those skimpy slip on kind and this resulted. felt the pain on my other foot halfway into my run so i was shocked when i came home took off my shoes and saw this! euyew...so much for having glittery insoles!


and it's really encouraging to see so many people running on a monday evening. it's monday! shoudn't everyone stay home and mooch coz the weekends just passed. i passed at least 20 joggers..mostly young women and old men. haha not sure why young men and old women don't run.

and mel msged me today telling me she's working at tamp1 for pre-reg! whooo! welcome to the east mel! easties go visit her!

i think it says alot when it's only 6pm and i'm home from work sitting in front of the laptop!

first day of work was great! gonna have niron with me for the nxt two months..whoppee so glad for company for the difficult first few weeks!

i think it's around that time of the month. i feel super hungry and bloated all the time..not sure whether it's water retention or actual weight gain from the non-stop eating the past week. came home and scuffle down some banana cake and carrot cake. oh maan i don't even like cake that much! gonna head down to run! have to get away from all that food!



when half your food comes out through your nose when you belch.

sigh! think i've been stuffing myself with more than my tummy can handle. think i'm gonna stay off fries for the next few months. been smelling puke plus fries for the last few hours despite washing out my nose. yes i know euyew.


had the most fun in kuala lumpur thanks to the company of joy mel parry and our lovely lovely host lianey! thanks for inviting us into your life..i could rave on and on bout it and your wonderful mum but i'll leave it til i have a clearer mind. it's almost 4am now time to get some shuteye!

been spending whatever free time i have at the hospital with my mum. now that she's finally discharged and home, i finally can get down to my filing of notes. my grandma came with my uncle this afternoon and the whole place is in a mess ): have been telling mummy so many times to throw stuff. but she just loves hoarding stuff. gonna make her toss everything out!

and my uncle bought cake for us..they looked so pretty i just snapped a haphazard picture and got down to eating it!


heading to KL with joy mel and parry tomorrow. haven't packed, super unready but i'm rather hyped up bout it!!! paintball..shopping..EATING GREAT STREET FOOD and checking out KL's night life whoop!

its been a rough couple of days, what with all the shuttling to and back from the hospital. i hope momo will be discharged soon. the house is a mess. i've been doing the laundry and making sure the drinking water tupperwares are filled and i'm already so exhausted. i wonder how my mum does everything else. but everyone else has been doing their share of the housework as well. so everything's pretty alright. just haven't had home-cooked food for days now.

and i finally made my way down to novena to get the files. got 12 of them in total and they're in just the nicest shades of pink! i got some pistachio green and grey coloured files as well. now i just have to make extra space for them in my already crammed room.


looking forward to meeting the percussion gals for bbq and chalet later on in the day. it's 3am already..time to sleep. strangely i'm up around 10 plus in the morning no matter how late i sleep. been having insufficient sleep because i've been heading to bed around 4am these days. and i have horrible rashes on my left outer thigh. i wonder why! alrights just a mini update before i leave for chalet with the gals. have a good last week of the hols for the pharm ppl!

i'm sitting here stinking up the room, just went for a run around the neighbourhood and the night air feels really good.

went to visit my mum earlier with my dad, and she looks pale but otherwise fine. shall head down to visit her again tomorrow. another busy day..shall wake up early for my medical checkup at bedok, then head down to novena to collect my files, visit my mum at lunch time, come back home to do some filing, maybe visit her again and meet the jc peeps for supper.

played tennis with sab, mike, greg and mike's friend shengtao earlier on in the night. tennis is a really scary game. the court is huge, the ball is small, it comes to you at such a high speed and you've got to run to it. squeaks! seems to be courting danger to me haha. started off playing with sab and my arm was hurting just after ten mins. euyew so lousy. but thanks to you guys for attempting to teach me. you guys were really encouraging. so touched! sher come join us nxt time when you get back from hk alright?

went for supper after that. and the prata at mike's place rocks! haven't had such doughey prata since the prata shop at the coffee place near my house shifted. used to buy stacks of prata to ps place and had brekkie with all his brothers and mum. and it's funny how sab and i really have totally opposing taste. she likes the crispier kinda prata while i prefer the doughier kind. and so many other things! well at least we won't fight for the same stuff!

alright it's 3.30am i really should be cleaning up and getting some rest for tomorrow!

the sales in stores now are crazy! crazily awesome! went out with andrea to get huiping's birthday present. we bought her gift in 20 minutes and spent the rest of the morning shopping. i'm now prancing around in my buys. got a high waisted pants, work skirt and a pair of shoes..not regreting any of them yet..happy sigh!

met the cow for a drink in the late afternoon. he's still the same chatty guy. back in singapore for good. but i'm glad for him. knowing what oneself wants and being chipper is most important.

my mum's in the isolation ward at changi now..my goodness. she had a fever yesterday, and now she's suspected to be down with pneumonia. poor thing! my dad's back from vietnam but we can't visit her right now until she gets transferred to another ward. i hope she gets well soon! gonna head down to changi anyways to get the nurse to pass some stuff to her. she must be mighty bored without any visitors.
finally got down to proper packing. decided to do a mass throw out of stuff i've been hoarding but have not been using. decided to throw stuff from ps. guess it's high time to clear them. funny how we made such illustrious promises to each other when we were still juveniles. the young inherit earth they say.

i've found even more cloth..and stuffings..gonna make mini cushions for my mum and bee. i just need time. don't wanna start work. the thought of it makes me depressed and when i'm depressed, i stuff myself.

tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. will be meeting andrea, cow, and jc peeps all at different intervals of the day. hopefully i wake up early enough to get some laundry done as well. just changed the sheets. my mum's ill and my dad's in vietnam. oh what a headache!




rarrrr the mess has gone from bad to worst!!! the more i pack, the messier it gets, i can't even walk around my part of the room without tripping over stuff..rarr! i need to open a flea market stall pronto!

okay joy just showed me a picture of what she had for dinner! JOY YONG! its past midnight..the time when my tummy starts to grumble..and she showed me a picture of brownies topped with ice cream and fudge sauce and what seems to be loads of nice whipped cream surrounding it with oreo sprinkles!

and i just ordered files from this stationary shop near my mum's work place. the exact combi below x2! so pretty! shall head down one day for lunch with her and collect them at the same time..


met greg for a run this evening. we almost missed each other AGAIN..i ran to simei, didn't see him and was heading home already when he sprinted past me!

and i checked my email today and realised i have tons of stuff to do other than clearing the huge mess. have to hand up my insurance claim docs as well as get my ass down to some medical centre to get checked up for my employment since work is starting oh so soon....not to mention the many photocopies of result slips, and identification documents to make and hand up...i have no time for sewing!!


all my precious cloth and ribbons and buttons from people's park and shanghai all sitting in the dark, waiting for me.....

for days now, i've adopt a sweep everything under the rug attitude, what with the first aid course happening the very nxt day after i came back to our lovely humid land and the last min rush to train for sundown.

now that sundown's done with and i'm a certified first aider (whoopee! bandage anyone?), i'm keeping my tuesday free to clear up the mess i've made. everything i own is now sprawled all over the house. i can't even bring myself to hazard a peek under my bed. been stuffing everything into the ten thousand bags i own and then stuffing those bags under the bed. haha.

time to change the sheets as well! bitbit has very well shown me that my bed is also part hers by marking her sleeping spot near my pillow..naughty!

speaking of sleeping, i woke up today, thinking DAMM WHY SO BRIGHT! then i realised it was 9.30am already and i was supposed to be at first aid lessons at 9am. well done agnes! luckily joy covered up for me. so glad for her calmness, i was like kan-chionging and throwing everything around my house!

after our first aid test, we met up with mel and parry for angels and demons. booo the book was waaay better! i almost fell asleep in the end. then we scored some monday deal at yoshinoya 5 minutes before happy hour was up! and i'm gonna remind myself that i hated onions in the past for a reason. kept burping when i got home!

asked my mum why she didn't wake me up like she usually does in the morning. and my sis retorted that my mum was slapping my feet and yelling her head off in the morning trying to wake me up. she also said that she was cling-clanging around from 8.30-9.30 getting ready for work and that i didn't even stir, but that i kept laughing in my sleep! MY GOODNESS! hahahaa...

alright shall make the remainder of the holidays a fruitful one! accomplish lots of stuff like sewing and cycling, organising my room, and meeting up with friends! ooh, and i bought a studded belt from tokyo, gonna destud it and stud my faded jeans!!

ahahahha....just had to note it down!