The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.

2008 was not a good year for me. it was...weird. but i scrapped through it with the presence of friends and family who kept me laughing when i needed the laughter.

joy has an entry on her blog that listed the major events that occured to her this year and as i read it, it's like pheww we survived through all of that?! somehow as i sit here, it just seems overwhelming that an entire year just passed. i remember exactly what i did last year on the first day of 2008. i had supper with the jc ppl and the nxt day i woke up to accompany my mum who was warded in hospital.

i guess 2008 was spent with friends more than ever. lots of suppers and hanging out at greg's with my jc class. more outings with joy mel and parry. there were loads with the other pharm ppl as well but as fyp started, our little outings took a back seat. there was tauhuey sessions with car. meetups with daycare pals vels and debs.

family was good too. my mum allowed me out later at night more. turned a blind eye when i reached home at 2plus in the morning. i'm not sure whether it's because i've turned 21 but i'm really grateful for the trust. my dad's been an absolute cutie the whole year. haha making me laugh all the time with his stories or his acts. and giving me car rides whenever he can. things were different with my sis though. so in the new year, i'm gonna try to be nicer to my sis. she can be nice and very sweet at times too. in the face of all negativity, i must remind myself of who i am and not be tempted to be critical and eyeball-rolling and negative.

this later end of this year put a 'should be negligible' emphasis on food. it's bad really. my take on eating has always been live to eat. but there's been too many experiences and influences this year that highlighted non-eating. the take on the perfect body shape is now model-stick-like-ness. and i really cannot enjoy taking my food when friends and family around me watch their food soo much. meagre portions during buffets, almost non-existent carbo helpings, complaints about eating too much all the time. it's driving me crazy.

and what's not helping is that i gained a mighty 3kg in a few weeks. suddenly all my pants got too tight and i have people telling me i've gained weight. ppl at home calling me fat ): so instead of turning to depression, i took up a diet (which may be just as bad). well i'm back to my normal weight now but what followed the diet was a harsh consciousness on watching my diet. i used to enjoy food so much. i still do. but there's like something that takes away a little of the enjoyment. and i really don't appreciate the something being there. so in the new year i'm going to try to accept my body for the way it is. eat with a vengence without hitting on excessive. and no more diets pls!

and i've finally kept on my plan to exercise more. have been running quite alot this year. managed to hit 5k before spraining an ankle. i guess i'll consider that an achievement. i've never run more than 3k in my life ever. last year at this time if you told me that i'd be running 5k, i'd be asking you to stuff a sock down your throat..in the politest way of course! (((: but i've signed up for the sundown 10k this coming may with mel and joy! so no matter what, i'll be running alot more this year. and it comes with the prettiest run singlet!

last year's resolution was more sleep, more exercise. i guess i managed to achieve that. have been sleeping over an average of 10hrs per day this year. this sem is gonna be real hectic coz it's 6 core modules. so it's gonna be better sleeping habits. slping and waking up at normal times. i'm doing it slping at 4am and waking up at 2pm these days. it's gonna be latest to bed by 2am and up at 10am the latest. i've gotta get some sunny mornings into my system.

and i've to be more disciplined. have been a horrible human this year. not knowing my priorities. gossip girl over drug quiz bla bla..and less whining and sulking. coz i really hate people who do that..and i've come to realised i've picked it up over the year! yikes!

so here goes...
- be more friend than enemy with my dearest frenemy
- eat like i deserve it
- run my first 10k
- better sleeping habits
- work on discipline, whining, sulking and being critical

there it doesn't seem too much now when it's put into a list. so happy 2009 everyone! it's gonna be a good one!